The sound of the sand falling through an hour glass is deafening.
101 days since my last post- a Friday routine that has long slipped away.
Oma passed away. That was, well still is, a hard one for me. May? Seems like yesterday. The day was sunny and slightly windy as we lowered her coffin and placed roses on it.
Opa passed away. Wow, 96 days since that happened? So hard to even comprehend. The day was made harder to endure as my dear Oma sat and held the hand of her husband with such a look of utter loss and emotional devastation. The deepest of love followed by the deepest of sorrows.
My MBA project was ended in October and I have not read or sat in front of a computer except for work, which by good fortune, has been steady and manageable. Well, almost- some pieces of my portfolio have been shared or put on hold. Interesting to look back over 2017 and consider 'new job stress' along with raising twins, funerals and all the normal stresses - I have done well, considering.
The important pieces, H&M&S are well, and the extended family has little other noise for me to worry about. The boys grow and amaze me everyday. Parenting is such a blessing, even when they cough through the night and my heart breaks and the restless nights have me in a mental fog during the day. I am blessed to be with someone who is my partner, friend and constant support through this journey.
And myself? Yeah, a little burnt out still, a little tired and a little short of my goal. The MBA was to test me, and had I sailed through I may not have appreciated it as much. And my MBA vintage may be 2018, which is a little perk to this delay. There is also the lifelong learning thing- after the MBA was to be the CMC and the DTM- so - patience, Dieter, patience- enjoy the process and learn. There is no end to this learning journey.
With a better attention to balance, maybe I can run this year, spend time with the H and the boys, and learn some more. There will be more bumps in the road, that is for sure. May 11, 2018 is 101 days from now- best to make good use of the light.
Dieter Wentzel, CPHR